Suddenly, I realize… Rolf is already almost half a year old. The past few months have been the most intense but certainly the most beautiful months of my life. With each passing day, my love for Rolf grows even more. And every moment, I think there can’t be any more love to give. But this sometimes also brings fear. I want to protect him from the negative influences the world brings with it.
Consciously choosing how he spends his time during these moments.
Especially when he’s clingy due to Leap 5, I feel this sense of responsibility, despite the fact that he’s already my big baby. Through my new life as a mother and especially during a leap with Rolf, I consciously choose how he spends his time in these moments. I try to create a positive environment when he especially wants to be close to us as parents. Rolf and I love listening to music, which creates a pleasant atmosphere at home. The humming and singing make a big smile appear on his face.
I observe and analyze from my infinite love.
When I walk away from him during his playtime to cook in the same room, I notice that he doesn’t want to feel the distance between us. He follows me with his eyes wherever I go and wants to be there with me. While cooking, I wonder why he didn’t want to take his afternoon nap today. I observe and analyze every development from my infinite love for him.
A few days later, I see him pick up the toys in front of him in one smooth motion. His nights are no longer interrupted, and he’s already eating different vegetables by putting them in his mouth himself. I encourage him to discover different tastes, and I see him eagerly using his spoon to explore.
New developments with a big smile.
My little handsome baby. When I give him a hug, all my worries disappear. With the combination of working, running my own business, and maintaining social contacts, it often requires making choices. Spending time with Rolf has become even more precious after my maternity leave. I genuinely look forward to the days together, even though I also enjoy the moments when I am more than just a mother. Especially when he’s made new developments, I don’t want to miss a moment when he shows me this with a big smile.
Together, we consciously experience our moments. Holding him in the moment, without being distracted by negative thoughts. He is moving forward in his future in this beautiful world. The next time I glance at Rolf from the kitchen, I think, you’re going through your own beautiful developments and are the greatest gift I have ever received in this sometimes complicated world.
